On the Head of a Pin

[tracy_loo_who]

This is, hands down, my very favorite episode of the entire fucking series. There's. I mean, I've always loved this show, stayed up late to wait for downloads and stayed up even later capslocking my fingers off, but right now. I'm so shaken I can't even capslock. I just. This is how I felt after watching BSG's "The Oath" and "Blood on the Scales" except even MORE intense because of Jensen and MISHA. So. So I think this may have actually been the best 42 minutes and 2 seconds of television I have ever watched in my life, if not for the epic then for the shippiness. it's. I am actually having trouble breathing right now, can people who don't suffer from asthma have asthma attacks?

Both of them, Misha and Jensen. Are more beautiful in this episode than they have ever been before. Ever. Which explains this epic, impromptu picspam.

This is where I first started shaking, in the very first few seconds of the episode because. I've always had a thing for Misha's profile, right, but THIS? god, I can't. And this whole part where he just walks -- purposeful and strong and majestic, somehow -- I've never known that watching someone walk could do this to me.


And this shot right here, oh, how is it possible for someone to be this beautiful? I could just weep.


This is just kind of an amusing shot. But there's nothing amusing about how tired Dean is and how... mercilessly Sam says "well, get angry!" and how he doesn't even feel bad about Pam and how he's obviously getting so impatient with Dean "holding him back" and why is Sam driving? He honestly scares me here. What happened to Sammy? Who IS this man in the car with Dean?


Well, Dean got angry, alright. Swearing at Uriel, and stepping forward all intimidatingly. And baiting Castiel ('Cas' #1!) about burning Pam's eyes out. God, he is actually angry and trying to pick a fight and it's frightening. Jensen, Jensen, you are fucking amazing. And Castiel's startled, haunted look.



Castiel: "Dean, we know this is difficult to understand."
Uriel: "And we... don't. care."
Except, by god, he visibly does care, just LOOK at him. Dean looks, too. Dean sees him caring. I. jesus.



Castiel: "Dean. You're our best hope."
Dean: "No. No way. You can't ask me to do this, Cas, not this." ('Cas' #2!)
And Castiel tries to look away, but is physically unable to. Dean? Dean is so hurt and betrayed and terrified and angry and pleading with Castiel, the one who's supposed to protect him and be his friend, and it kills me.



Dean: "You're all-powerful; you can make me do whatever you want. But you can't make me do this." Notice how he turns to Castiel at these last words, trying to act big but once again with those pleading eyes.
Castiel: "This is too much to ask, I know. But we have to ask it." Never takes his eyes off Dean at all, not even to blink.
And Dean believes him. After everything. You can see it. See him giving up.



Dean: "I wanna talk to Cas alone." ('Cas' #3!)
Castiel looks surprised and gratified that Dean has at least this small measure of trust in him, and terrified that Dean will break his resolve to steel himself. All in this one look. Oh god, Misha.


Dean: "You guys don't walk enough, you're gonna get flabby."
LOL, I love the momentary comic relief, it is MUCH needed. And Castiel's unamused brow furrow, hahahahahahaha Cas. ♥


Dean: "You know, I'm starting to think Junkless has a better sense of humor than you do."
Castiel: "Uriel's the funniest angel in the garrison, ask anyone."
fjksldfjskld LOL MISHA HOW DO YOU SAY THIS WITH A STRAIGHT FACE? OH CAS, I FUCKING LOVE YOU.


Dean: "What's going on, Cas? Since when does Uriel put a leash on you?" ('Cas' #4!) While WALKING TOWARDS CASTIEL like he isn't even meaning to do it, he's just drawn there.
Castiel: "My superiors have begun to question my sympathies."
Dean: "Sympathies?"
Castiel: "I was getting too close to the humans in my charge. You."
He just... god, he almost looks like he's blaming Dean for this, and he probably is, but the pained honesty and affection is just palpable. It's too much for Dean, who can't look in the face of all of that.



Castiel: "They feel I've begun to express emotions.. the doorways to doubt. This can impair my judgment."
The way he deliberately turns away from Dean and lifts his chin so defiantly -- God, Castiel is so desperate to hang on to his emotionless resolve and Dean sees right through him.


But then Dean starts talking and moving again, and Castiel's lips part hopelessly and you can just see his turmoil under that beautiful, beautiful vessel.


Dean: "Well tell Uriel, or whoever, that you do not want me doing this, trust me."
It's his final plea, and it breaks my heart even more than his previous ones. It breaks Castiel's heart, too, he can't even look at Dean.


Castiel: "Want it? No. But I've been told we need it."
Being told things is easy, isn't it, Cas? But you don't want to dwell on it too much, because that way lies madness. and love. and they're the same thing and he knows it.


Dean: "You ask me to open that door and walk through it... you will not like what walks back out."
Nor will Dean, most importantly. Dean is going to ruin himself all over again, break himself all over again, become the thing that he loathes most, for Cas. He would do that for him. jfkdslfjklsjfls god. D:

Castiel: "For what it's worth, I would give anything not to have you do this."
It's the motherfucking truth, you guys.


And Dean knows it, and closes his eyes in resignation. Just.. take a moment to really let the magnitude of what he's about to do for Castiel sink in. Apart from going to Hell for Sam, I don't think he's ever done one thing to hurt himself more for the sake of someone else. And it's Cas. I have never, ever dreamed that a pairing that means so much to me would have this much canon support, and Kripke is giving it to us, and I don't even know what to do with myself.


Castiel's helpless protectiveness and loss and guilt here -- I mean, it's not even just the expression, it's the entire way Misha holds himself that just makes me want to cry or something ridiculous like that.


LOL @ Alastair singing about dancing with Dean. But Dean trying his damnedest to ignore him, Dean practically vibrating with how much he wants this and how much he hates himself for wanting it. Jensen. D:

Although, I mean, this scene? I don't think Jensen has ever been this deliciously, chillingly sexy before. He always sent thrills through me, but not anything like this. This is just. Gah, I can't even talk. Just look. especially at that cruel little smirk in the second one.



There is something about the way Dean takes off his jacket so slowly and with such finality that makes me go cold and hot at the same time. But all this talk of John being a hero and Dean disappointing him, and Dean fighting so hard to not let it get to him... It hurts me sort of physically.



Whoa. Whoa. Is this a Castiel expression or am I a raging monkey?


Castiel waiting by himself out here, slumped against whatever he's leaning on and listening to Dean ruin himself, fighting with himself to not give in and save Dean... D:



I don't even know how I feel about Sam anymore. At first I thought he was being protective of Dean and my heart swelled, but then I thought he was just being derisive about Dean's weakness and I got angry, and now I just... can't believe he's let himself fall this far. I mean. Really? And look at Ruby, is there ANYONE who still thinks she's just trying to help out? I can't believe she called him Sammy.



Nnnnngh.



I can't decide who this is hurting more, Dean or Castiel. :(



Anna. :| But, on the bright side, Castiel! I wonder, though, who Anna called in favors from if Castiel's still got orders to kill her...

What a way to go out, eh, Alastair/Dean shippers?


Anna: "Why are you letting Dean do this?" (I hate that she calls him 'Cas'..)
Castiel: "He's doing God's work."
Keep telling yourself that like it makes everything okay, bb. Who are you kidding?


Anna: "You think He wants this? You think He'd ask this of you?"
This is interesting, isn't it? Anna knows exactly how much making Dean do this is hurting Castiel. And Castiel beginning to look lost and doubtful is a beautiful thing.


Castiel's gorgeous hand, before Anna sullies it. Oh but I do love the way he jerks it away in disgust. :))



What a badass motherfuckin' angel right there. ;)



But with Anna no longer there to distract him from what's happening to Dean, he deflates and goes droopy again. :(


Sam is just as chilling as Dean is, but... not in a good way. In a scary way. Dean, I've still got a grip on Dean. He's still Dean because he still puts Sam above all else. I have no idea who Sam is anymore.


So first Dean breaks himself, and then Alastair breaks him even more. Again. This episode is probably as emotionally draining for me as it is for Castiel.



Obligatory whumpy!Dean. \o/



What took so long, Cas? :( But nnnngh. Nnnnngh!


HOW'S THAT FOR SOME MOTHERFUCKING HAND!PORN?


I could watch Misha get in fistfights forever. But. Obligatory whumpy!Cas! The only thing that would make this better is Cas speaking in Latin. Come on, everyone else has done it! D:



lol. -.-


Not a big fan of Sam being more powerful than Castiel, friggin' angel of the Lord, but. whatever. More whumpy!Cas!


And more whumpy!Dean! Along with concerned!Cas. Oh, this episode is too good to us.



Sam being all protective again wins me back a little. Just a little, though. Mostly I just love how guilty and frustrated and beautiful Castiel is. I do like that Castiel trusts Sam, though, at least in this. For some reason.


Misha's neck and jaw! ♥


Breaking my heart here, Cas. Breaking my heart with the puppy looks. :(


Castiel: "For the first time, I feel..."
And that's when he realizes it, isn't it? That he feels, and he's just admitted it out loud. Then, asking Anna to please tell him what to do.. I've never. Oh Cas. WHY HASN'T HE BEEN HUGGED YET? This is my favorite Anna moment, actually. Telling Castiel to think for himself. ♥



Why so beautiful?


Uriel and Castiel have been together forever, huh? And yet Castiel obviously feels for Dean way more than he feels for Uriel. Is so angry with Uriel for hurting Dean, that's his first real question he needs to know the answer to. He gets an annoyed eye-twitch when Uriel uses Dean's nickname for him. God this is getting ridiculous but I cannot stop taking screencaps of his gorgeous face. It's a sickness. A glorious, glorious sickness.



So Castiel knew Lucifer. What fics will come of this, I wonder? XD But, dude, again with the fist fighting. fjlsdfjksldklj the only thing I dislike about this is the fact that he ALWAYS LOSES. Just this once I wanted to see him not have to be saved by someone.


Just an awesome shot. I'm sad to see Uriel go, though.


Castiel thinks Uriel's death is regrettable, but again, it's nothing compared to how he looks when he's thinking about Dean.


Castiel: "Are you alright?"
Dean: "No thanks to you."
Castiel: "You need to be more careful."
Dean: "You need to learn how to manage a damn Devil's Trap."
Castiel: "That's not what I mean."
This is as close as Castiel can get to admitting he worries about Dean's safety, isn't it? ♥



Castiel has nothing but sympathy and sorrow when he tells Dean that yes, he's the one who started everything. He's the reason Castiel's risking neck and feather and watching his brothers and sisters die and questioning himself and his faith and everything, and yet, Castiel never resents him. In fact, he goes out of his way to tell Dean that it's not blame that falls on him. The beauty of this floors me completely.


I gotta wonder, though, did they save John before he could break? I mean, did they "lay siege to Hell" for him like they did for Dean?

Dean: "Lucifer? The apocalypse? What does that mean? ...Hey! Don't you go disappearing on me, you son of a bitch. What does that mean?"
Castiel: "I don't know."
Dean: "Bull!"
Castiel: "I don't. Dean, they don't tell me much. I know.. our fate rests with you."
Dean just wants his guardian angel to have all the answers. Oh, Dean. And Castiel doesn't know, because they don't tell him much, he's just a soldier. Like Dean.

Dean: "Well then you guys are screwed. I can't do it, Cas. ('Cas' #5!) It's too big. Alastair was right, I'm not all here, I'm not str-- I'm not strong enough. ...I guess I'm not the man either of our dads wanted me to be. Find someone else. It's not me."
Remember when I said Dean would drop his macho act and break down in front of Castiel and let the angel take some of the weight off his shoulders? He's done it. And I.. the way he says he can't do it, it's too big -- god, that broke me. And I have never seen Misha look more helplessly sad anywhere else than he is here, playing this angel who isn't supposed to feel anything. The one who has no idea what to say to his human charge and friend but who for the first time ever actually sticks around because Dean needs him to just be there. My ship. my heart belongs to this ship.



I can't even believe this show is giving me exactly what I want. God, this hurts so good but I love this episode. Dean and Castiel couldn't possibly bond more unless it got physical. And I can't even talk about this anymore, I'm just going to go to bed and be broken and happy and in love.

Comments

[crystalchain.livejournal.com]

THIS. OMG THIS. I love you so freaking much for making this entry. The intensity of this episode aside because lets be shallow here for a moment... The sheer beauty of them both is ridiculous.

I love Dean and Castiel. I cannot even begin to put my love for them into words. God knows I tried it several time but no matter what I came up with—it's not doing it justice. I just... Christ, this show is going to be the death of me. I think the review I wrote for this episode is the longest I've ever written, that alone speaks for itself I think.

This episode broke me. Especially the very last scene :´(

This is, hands down, my very favorite episode of the entire fucking series.
MINE TOO. It was EPIC!

[tracy.livejournal.com]

♥♥♥ I love YOU for loving this episode as much as I do!

The sheer beauty of them both is ridiculous.

God, I know, no episode of any TV show has ever forced me to take a hundred screencaps of it at 5 am until this episode, until Misha and Jensen here.

I can't spell out how much I love them either, bb. I thought I did a pretty okay job with that manifesto back then, but my love for this ship has doubled since then, especially after this episode, and now I'm just reduced to flailing. And screencapping.

Omg, I can't wait to read your review, and everyone else's! Haven't checked the flist since before the episode aired, but I'm all excited about it now, wheee! THE LOVE WILL BE SO EPIC, I CAN JUST IMAGINE IT.

Oh god, I haven't even given proper thought to exactly what this means for Dean yet, that would likely take hours. I mean, like he said, it's just too big, I can't even begin to comprehend it yet, but I'm pretty sure this is rock fucking bottom for our favorite Winchester. Until he sees Sam for what he's really become. And then it'll be even lower than rock fucking bottom, and I can't even. God. D:

[spacemonkey-699.livejournal.com]

I'M ABOUT TO WATCH IT, AND I'M FLAILING, OMG, EVERYONE HAS BEEN TALKING ABOUT THE EPICNESS, AND I SHOULD BE IN BED, BUT FUCK THAT. OMG OMG OMG.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

FUCK BED, I STAYED UP TILL 5 AM FOR THIS.

[starflowers.livejournal.com]

I just downloaded and watched that episode (SO exhausted but I HAD to watch it, it's freaking 4am), and it finished, and I just kept saying "Ohmygod. Holy crap" over and over again.

I never liked Uriel, and I laughed when Dean told him to bring back donuts. I never got the tension between Dean and Castiel, really, til now. I mean, it was an attractive idea, but I never saw much evidence of it in the show. Yeah, no, I totally get it now, seriously. Holy shit.

Sam... god. I don't even know what to say. But at the same time, here is is with this massive demonic power, killing Alastair, and Cas just WATCHES, all shocked and horrified, but he doesn't try to stop it, he doesn't kill Sam like he and Uriel said they would. Sam's got this massive amount of power and yet he's using it to help the angels. Like Dean had this massive amount of skill in something dark, torture, and the angels were allowed to use that weapon against Alastair, even if that weapon came from hell, so maybe Sam's qualifies too. Also, it was Uriel who said that Sam couldn't use that power or they'd stop him if Dean couldn't, so maybe Sam CAN use it... I don't know, though, he's gotten so scary. But then, he drank the blood and used the power to go after Dean, to save Castiel, so maybe Castiel is starting to see that differently, as something they can use. Or something that should never be used. That was a whole lot of power.

Also, Ruby? No longer like her. She should die.

But I still like Anna. I know loads of people don't, because she slept with Dean, but whatever, I like her. I like what she represents, I'm glad she's a strong female character who is willing to stick to what she believes in, and doesn't give in to Cas's puppy dog eyes but is still there to save his life when he needs it. I like that she's willing to talk to him but not to tell him what to do. It's about time someone gave him that choice.

It's interesting how Dean tells Cas he won't like the man who comes back from the torture, as if he'll be this dark, scary guy because he likes it so much. And in the end, Dean comes back broken and claiming not to be strong enough.

One thing that bothers me is why wasn't Sam there? Why did Dean want Castiel instead of Sam? There is a fundamental flaw in the entire makeup of the show if the bond between Sam and Dean is broken, and it made me kind of sick to my stomach.

Also, about Dean's dad... didn't he escape hell? in the episode where the gateway opens, and all those demons escape, doesn't John escape? How was he down there for 100 years if he was actually down there for less time than Dean? Why DIDN'T the angels go after him? Why did Cas say all that stuff to make my story that I wrote more AU than it was before?

Haha.

Anyway, I sort of needed to get all that out before trying to sleep, since that episode sort of screwed with my head a lot and I'd have nightmares otherwise. So, uhm, goodnight.

[ibroketuesday.livejournal.com]

*is comment surfing*

I never got the tension between Dean and Castiel, really, til now. I mean, it was an attractive idea, but I never saw much evidence of it in the show. Yeah, no, I totally get it now, seriously. Holy shit.

Oh, man. Tell me about it. I just said to someone that this was an episode to make shippers, and it's true. I mean, I shipped them before. But this was insane.

[littlestclouds.livejournal.com]

He honestly scares me here. What happened to Sammy? Who IS this man in the car with Dean?

I just keep going back to 4x04 and Dean's little speech about Sam going off the reservation.

Dean: "You know, I'm starting to think Junkless has a better sense of humor than you do."
Castiel: "Uriel's the funniest angel in the garrison, ask anyone."
fjksldfjskld LOL MISHA HOW DO YOU SAY THIS WITH A STRAIGHT FACE? OH CAS, I FUCKING LOVE YOU.

Ha, my mom, who totally DOES NOT GET the show at all LOL'd at this. That was great.

Although, I mean, this scene? I don't think Jensen has ever been this deliciously, chillingly sexy before.

Word. He disturbed and flustered me all at once. :D:

I don't even know how I feel about Sam anymore. At first I thought he was being protective of Dean and my heart swelled, but then I thought he was just being derisive about Dean's weakness and I got angry, and now I just... can't believe he's let himself fall this far. I mean. Really? And look at Ruby, is there ANYONE who still thinks she's just trying to help out? I can't believe she called him Sammy.

I agree with you on all of this. Sam really scares me. It makes me think that the speculation about a Dean vs. Sam battle might not be so far-fetched. :/

Sam being all protective again wins me back a little. Just a little, though.

Me too. At least he still cares. Maybe. Who knows with Sam these days anyway. :/

Castiel: "For the first time, I feel..."
And that's when he realizes it, isn't it? That he feels, and he's just admitted it out loud. Then, asking Anna to please tell him what to do.. I've never. Oh Cas. WHY HASN'T HE BEEN HUGGED YET? This is my favorite Anna moment, actually. Telling Castiel to think for himself.

Anna actually redeemed herself for me a little in this scene with Castiel.

Just an awesome shot. I'm sad to see Uriel go, though.

I liked him. :/ He and Castiel made perfect foils for Sam and Dean.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

What scares me most about Sam is that I don't think he can ever come back from this, that they're broken forever. Dean's going to find out about the demon blood cocktails, and he's never going to be able to look at Sam the same away again. :(

*G* That line about Uriel being the funniest angel was probably my favorite line from the episode. XDDD

It really does look like it's headed toward a brother vs brother battle, doesn't it? wah. Epic, but wah.

You know, if Anna hadn't been so much with all the touching, I actually would have liked her here, being a mentor to Castiel rather than a superior.

I liked Uriel too. :( But maybe we'll get some other angels, who knows?

*FLAIL*

[ashinan.livejournal.com]

So, I got home from work, flailed epically in front of my television until Supernatural came on, and then sat there with a blanket to my mouth muffling my screams of horror and Castiel's name (because let's face it, every time Dean is in trouble, I immediately scream Castiel's name). This episode. THIS EPISODE. I just. JUST. Words fail, and it is amazing that I can still type after I flailed at the end. And then I realized that everyone was going to be talking about it and was like "Tracy better have posted so I can vent" and you had and thank youuuu.

The confession. Oh, the confession. How Dean breaks down and tells Cas what he would only tell Sam and. It's every Dean/Castiel fangirl's dream. I mean, I just sat there and went, "Oh Cas." Followed shortly by, "Dean. Dean, Dean, Dean." And then more incoherent words muffled into my blanket. And then I Tivoed it and watched every wonderful detail again.

And Sam. Why Sam? I adored you; you were so wonderful before with your cute puppy eyes and your 'I lost my shoe' quality, and now you're almost like a vampire and you even frighten Cas and that's just not good, Sammy. Don't do this to meeeee. I liked you!

Uriel going traitor kind of made me pause. I thought it would be Anna. But it wasn't and then I realized that Uriel's whining about his hatred of humanity might've been just. But I will miss him. He was a kickass angel regardless of the whole 'smite Dean now' behaviour.

I hope you don't mind how freakishly long this comment is apparently going to be. Because it is long and MY HANDS ARE SHAKING AND THE KEYBOARD KEEPS MOVING AND ARGH! CASTIEL, DEAN, WHY DO YOU TORTURE ME SO?! And did I mention Misha is now my second favourite actor? I am fangirling over him just as hard as I am fangirling over Jensen. It's rather frightening, but in a good, very good way.

I want to make this longer. So much longer. So I can point out all the wonderfulness of this episode and squeal and squirm and flail about it, but I cannnnn't and it makes me sad. So, I shall watch the episode again, even though I have class in the morning (or, in like three hours), and am unable to actually sleep because all I can see is the Dean and Castiel moments playing over and over in my head.

Oh, and if Anna even tries to get near Dean again, or touches Castiel with her hands, I hope Castiel smites her ass. Very evilly. And with that sexy smirk as he does so. That would make my day.

...Now excuse me while I flail myself into oblivion.

Re: *FLAIL*

[tracy.livejournal.com]

because let's face it, every time Dean is in trouble, I immediately scream Castiel's name

♥♥♥ ME TOO. That whole part where Alastair was beating Dean up I kept muttering "Cas Cas Cas, where are you?" under my breath. I still can't believe it took him that long. D:

But hahha awww, I'm flattered to be your go-to girl for Dean/Cas venting! Like, really really flattered. Ilu.

God, I watched that confession scene so many times and I still can't even begin to comprehend the enormity of the weight on Dean's shoulders. I mean, Dean, who's spent his entire life trying to protect people, started the apocalypse, and god it would have been utterly impossible for him to not break in front of Castiel. And Castiel's so broken too, questioning his faith and thus his very existence and on top of all of that he just wants to help Dean but has no idea how, and oh god oh god just thinking about them distresses me so much it's glorious.

SERIOUSLY, SAM USED TO BE SO HAPPY AND DORKY AND CUTE, WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED? D:

I liked Uriel too, although I always sort of thought, even from the beginning, that his contempt for humans was very reminiscent of Lucifer's.

Dude, I love freakishly long comments, I love TALKING to people about this show and this pairing, I love everyone who loves them. My hands were shaking too, last night, ALL of me was shaking, and I think Misha actually just surpassed Jensen as my favourite actor, though that may also be due to the guy's sheer awesomeness off screen as well.

You can comment with novels if you like, bb, and I will soak it all up eagerly. Seriously, EVERY LITTLE THING ABOUT THIS EPISODE, I just want to talk about it and think about it forever. And watch it, I watched it three times last night, with some scenes many more times than that.

Ahahaha I wouldn't have minded Anna at all if she hadn't been trying to touch Castiel so much, argh. D:

*FLAILS WITH YOU*

[iladora.livejournal.com]

WOAH. YOU ARE HAVING BREAKFAST WITH THIS MAN? I'M SO EXCITED FOR YOU AND I DON'T EVEN WATCH SUPERNATURAL!

[tracy.livejournal.com]

YES I AM, HOLY SHIT AND THANK YOU, AND LOL YOU SHOULD SERIOUSLY GET ON THAT, WHAT ELSE WILL YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE AFTER TONIGHT'S OVER?

(Really, though, my awe of Misha has grown to such epic proportions overnight that I'm not sort of terrified of meeting him, even though I've already done so once.)

[mrstotten.livejournal.com]

So Castiel knew Lucifer. What fics will come of this - Have you read savingfaith333's wonderful lucifer rising??? it has a VERY interesting *cough* Cas/Luc backstory.

See this is exactly what I said in the love meme, you love every teeny tiny pore on Misha's bdy and I ADORE you for it :D

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Oh man, her fics have been rec'd to me by a few other people too and they look AMAZING, but all of it is just so so so long that I haven't been able to find the time yet. D: Someday, I swear.

!! Love meme, really? Omg, I had no idea, awwww, do you have a link? THANK YOU, oh my god I've never put my name in a love meme before, hahha, I'm all flustered now. :">! Oh but god yes, I do so love that man and all of his pores and everything about him. So much.

[spacemonkey-699.livejournal.com]

HOLY SHIT, THAT WAS FUCKING EPIC.

New rule. Misha should be bloodied at least once an ep. I'm not shallow, not at all. And ha! Anna totally got rejected. Plz for everyone except for Dean to stop calling him Cas. Now?

I wanna watch it again. This is what I've been waiting for. This is what we needed. Oh man!

[tracy.livejournal.com]

LOL I TOOK SO MANY MORE SCREENCAPS OF BLOODY!CAS THAN I ACTUALLY POSTED BECAUSE IT WAS ALREADY GETTING SO RIDICULOUS. Nnnnnngh, I completely agree, I'd seen the promo stills and all but not even those prepared me for the actual thing -- I fucking lost it.

Gah, I know, everyone who's ever interacted with Castiel has called him Cas now, aside from the demons -- Sam, Anna, Uriel.. D: DEAN'S NICKNAME, BITCHES.

I've already watched it three times! \o/\o/

[spacemonkey-699.livejournal.com]

Also, I love how Misha's hair is messed up after fighting Uriel. Those strands on his forehead...

And you're right. That one Dean cap, that is TOTALLY a Castiel face! Mind = blown.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Ahahahah OH MY GOD I KNOW, his hair is always disheveled but this was even more epic. Just like this episode was even more epic than all the other Cas episodes. XD

God, I wonder if Jensen actually subconsciously got that from Misha. I wonder how much he'd have to have been watching Misha to subconsciously imitate him!

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Me too, bb, me too. I would have embarrassed myself SO MUCH if anyone else were here.

i don't even know where to begin describing it.

Yeah, me either, but my solution was just to take screencaps like a madwoman. XD

Dean at the end was more than heartbreaking, it was. I've never felt for any TV character like I do for him, more and more every week.

God, I haven't even started my Big Bang fic yet, I wanted to wait till after this episode aired. And boy did that turn out to be a good idea, because anything I might've written before would just get completely scratched out anyway.

[sablier-bloque.livejournal.com]

I was so lost last night in the sheer EPIC-NESS of the episode, that I think my mind jumbled some stuff and I lost things along the way. So I'm extremely grateful that you made this post, so that I could recap and get my bearings (and revel in all of the AMAZING Dean/Cas moments).

Fucking Ruby calling Sam "Sammy." I've always kind of had a soft spot for Ruby, but... this episode really killed it.

THE SHOT OF URIEL'S WINGS IS SO AWESOME. OMG.

Um, EYECON, darling.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

I think my mind jumbled some stuff and I lost things along the way

You don't need an excuse to watch this episode again, I'm sure, but HAVE ONE ANYWAY. XD I'm thrilled you enjoyed this post, though, because I sure as hell enjoyed making it. Actually "enjoyed" isn't the right word.. more like I would have exploded uncontrollably if I hadn't unloaded here.

Ruby.. I had such high hopes for her maybe actually being something good, but not so much anymore. Still, I do think it makes her more interesting, so I'm excited about where they're going to takeher.

YES. ALL THE SHOTS OF WINGS THEY'VE EVER DONE HAVE BEEN AWESOME, BUT THIS. OMG EPIC.

FJKLSDFLKSJDLK EYECON. I CAN'T BELIEVE. I MEAN, I KNOW I ALREADY MET MISHA ONCE, BUT NOW I AM EVEN MORE IN AWE OF HIM AFTER THIS EPISODE, HE'S OFFICALLY MY FAVORITE ACTOR IN THE WORLD NOW, AND I CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE I'M GOING TO ACTUALLY SEE HIM IN PERSON IN TWO DAYS. FJKDSLFJSKLD NNNNGH, are you THERE yet, how is it? I'm not getting in until tomorrow morning.

[vyrantium.livejournal.com]

OMG THAT EPISODE WAS AMAZING!! In an incredibly painful way of course, but still... I don't think I've ever been more impressed with Jensen and Misha's acting talent, and for Jensen as Dean that says a lot because he's had many shining moments.

With Sam drinking the demon blood (dude, seriously... WTF vampirism much?) and Ruby's face at the end of that clip (evil slutty bitch!) I can't help but worry that Sam WILL eventually become Lucifer incarnate and THAT'S what Dean would have to go through to "end it." Seriously, if that's the case? I think Dean MAY be unable to do it. That MIGHT be too big for him after all :/ I honestly used to like Sam somewhat... now? I would feel no remorse if he died, except I'd feel for Dean losing his brother again.

Oh, and the thing about John... maybe the angels had tried to get to him, or they were GOING to... but I always thought the reason John got out of hell was because the boys opened the gateway to hell and everything poured out. I figured John was one of those that poured out and he went up to heaven. I could be wrong :P I'm guessing John just held out until the boys opened the gate though.

And just...just...just... the SHIPPINESS!! Is that a word? It is now! xD Even my boyfriend appreciates the ship, which is just hilarious LOL

[tracy.livejournal.com]

I KNOW, Jensen in that last scene, just. The complete, utter devastation, in many ways it was worse than when Sam died because at least then, Dean had a course of action in mind, something to keep him moving. But this.. the enormity of this has crushed him so completely he can't do anything other than lie in bed and cry to Castiel and oh god I'm getting all emotional again just thinking about it.

Yeah, every episode I'm thinking "god, this is rock bottom for Dean" but it's not, not even now, not before he sees exactly what his brother's become and where he's headed. I am SO SCARED for the finale, and so excited, but mostly scared, I never knew a character could BE so broken until there was Dean in this season.

Right, and I'm sure that's how John did get out, I'm just curious if the angels ever tried to do anything about it before then. Doesn't sound like it, so it makes me wonder why Dean was different.

SHIPPINESS IS TOTALLY A WORD. And LOL, oh god your boyfriend rocks so hard. <3

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Hahahha this episode was already far, far beyond my wildest dreams, so I'm not gonna complain about a few extra inches. That's what fandom's here for. :)

You're right, and I like to think that if it came down to a fight between Castiel and Sam, Castiel would win because he's not a demon, and so hopefully Sam won't have anything on him. Not that I want it to come down to a fight between Castiel and Sam.

...Okay, actually I sort of DO want it to come down to that, if it's Dean vs Sam first and Dean cannot or will not do it so Castiel has to step in to save him. mmm.

But I digress. Thank you! That last scene is also my favorite, even if it's the one that broke me most. Because it's the one that broke me most, perhaps.

[goth-clark.livejournal.com]

This is the best episode of the show ever. Not just because I ship Dean/Castiel but because it is so epic and we finally find out why Dean was pulled from hell and that is so epic. Everything about this episode rocked like a rocking thing.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

YES. THIS. The answers we got were to questions we've had for so long and they are SUCH EPIC ANSWERS. Everything is just epic epic epic, oh god.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I AM SERIOUSLY STILL FLAILING EVEN HOURS AFTER THE EP HAS AIRED. OMG I AM JUST SO OVERWHELMED WITH HOW GOOD WE WERE TREATED BY THIS EPISODE. JUST, OMG. O__O

I just can't get over the fact that this episode was primarily all about the Castiel/Dean. I mean sure, there's all this revelations about Dean being the "harbinger of death" and "harold of the apocalypse" and all that jazz, but we were treated with so much more than that. We got Castiel doubting, his awareness of starting to feel more of humanity and it hurts him so much, and how he actually cares for Dean and will choose Dean over anything else (his words of "I would give anything to not have you do this" just made me flail like whoa). THIS IS THE EPIC SHIT WE'VE BEEN WAITING FOR, OMG.

These screencaps make me squee so hard, because pretty Castiel is pretty, especially being all woobified and then badass and angry to being confused and broken like Dean and...OMG MISHA HOW ARE YOU SO AWESOME?! SRSLY. So many scenes with Castiel looking like his entire world is falling apart all around him, which is very true, and I love it. I love it all.

And the beginning, with him being in that first scene - in the drizzling rain and stopping the car alarms with his ~*~ANGELIC POWAHS~*~ made me squee. In fact every time he used his powers I squealed. CASTIEL HAS MAGIC BB. &heart;

AND I LOVE HIM BEING ALL DISGUSTED AND POSSIBLY OFFENDED BY ANNA IN HIS PRESENCE IN THAT FIRST SCENE. THE WAY HE JUST SNARLED AND HIS VOICE GOT DEEPER, MORE DANGEROUS. I SHOULDN'T BE TURNED ON BY THAT BUT - I AM. OMG. ALSO I CHEERED BECAUSE THAT BITCH NEEDS TO BE PUT DOWN, BUT WE DON'T TALK ABOUT HER BECAUSE SHE IS NONEXISTENT TO THE LOVE OF THIS EPISODE. FOR ME ANYWAY.

I AM STILL CAPSLOCKING BECAUSE OMG THIS EPISODE IS POSSIBLY MY FAVS EVAH. CASTIEL AND DEAN. DEAN AND CASTIEL. MOAR AND MOAR CASTIEL SCENES PACKED INTO AN HOUR?! MY PRAYERS, THEY HAVE BEEN ANSWERED. :D

I CAN TALK ABOUT THIS EP ALL DAY BUT I HAVEN'T GONE TO BED AND I SHOULD. CASTIEL ENDORSES MUCH INSOMNIA. YES HE DOES.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

IT'S THE NEXT FRIGGIN DAY AND I AM STILL FLAILING, BB. I WILL KEEP FLAILING UNTIL 9:00 TONIGHT, AND THEN. OH GOD, IT'S ONLY FOUR HOURS AWAY NOW, IT FEELS LIKE THE END OF PART OF MY LIFE, AND THE FLAIL IS NEVER EVER EVER GOING TO END, IS IT? BECAUSE RIGHT AFTER THAT IS EYECON AND MISHA AND HOW CAN I EVEN HAVE BREAKFAST WITH THAT MAN AFTER THIS EPISODE? I AM MORE IN AWE OF HIM THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN WITH ANY OTHER ACTOR BEFORE. EVER. I JUST. FJDKSLF;JLDKFJ GOD HELP ME.

"You are the harbinger of death, Dean Winchester; you will lead them all to their end.." Yes, I thought that. But god, I know, this was SUCH a Dean/Castiel episode, if they weren't together with Dean looking pleadingly at him and Castiel looking helplessly back, then it was Castiel trying to hold his Dean-shattered world together or Dean just. well. shattering. This episode is shattering to me, and once again I cannot believe the fucking timing of it all.

his words of "I would give anything to not have you do this" just made me flail like whoa

God me too, so fucking much, but. but he still made him do it. If he could go back and choose differently, would he? I mean, I guess he probably would, since it didn't work anyway, but if it had worked, would he still have been willing to break Dean for it? Questions, questions, oh god I can't wait for all the fic. fjdkslfkjls

YES. Never before have I been so compelled to screencap every single expression an actor makes, but this episode.. god, I took WAY more screencaps than I actually posted, and this is already friggin ridiculous as it is. The range of emotions Castiel went through in this episode floors me completely, and Misha just has this way of acting that makes it all so SUBTLE, all the tiny little movements say everything, and god, fucking fucking fucking amazing.

In fact every time he used his powers I squealed.

*G* ME TOO, BB, ME TOO. SO HARD. EVEN JUST TURNING THE PIPE HANDLE.

HAHAHHAHA OH THAT DISGUST WAS SO PALPABLE, AND YES, GAHH, THAT MAN'S VOICE. SO CHEERFUL AND FUN IN RL BUT WHEN HE'S DOING CASTIEL'S VOICE IT GOES ALL DEEP AND THEN WHEN HE'S DOING ANGRY CAS IT JUST. GOD, MISHA, HOW DOES HE EVEN DO THAT TO US? YOU SHOULD TOTALLY BE TURNED ON, BB.

YOU KNOW, I WOULD'VE BEEN OKAY WITH ANNA IF SHE HADN'T KEPT TRYING TO FUCKING TOUCH HIM AND CALL HIM 'CAS'. I MEAN, WITH THE WHOLE MENTORING THING AND MAKING CASTIEL CHOOSE FOR HIMSELF.. THAT WAS ACTUALLY PRETTY COOL.

FJDLKSFJSKL I HAVE A FEELING I'M GONNA BE CAPSLOCKING FOR A LONG TIME. I HAVEN'T EVEN CHECKED MY FLIST YET, YOURS WAS THE ONLY POST I LOOKED FOR LAST NIGHT, SO I'M GONNA HAVE A HELL OF A TIME READING EVERYONE ELSE'S REVIEWS AFTER I FINISH REPLYING TO COMMENTS HERE. \O/\O/\O/ I FUCKING LOVE THIS FANDOM, HAVE I MENTIONED?

THERE'S GOING TO BE MORE EPISODES LIKE THIS, TOO, I THINK. WHERE CASTIEL'S IN PRACTICALLY EVERY FREAKING SCENE, OH GOD.

SPEAKING OF GOD, HE LOVES US. A LOT. APPARENTLY.

KRIPKE.

JSKLFJKSLDJLKKL INSOMNIA FTW. GOD I AM NOT GOING TO GET A LICK OF SLEEP ALL WEEKEND, AM I? I'M GOING TO HAVE DARK CIRCLES UNDER MY EYES AT BREAKFAST, HAHAHAHHA.

[nomorefrostbite.livejournal.com]

Castiel: "Uriel's the funniest angel in the garrison, ask anyone."
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ GREATEST LINE.

Castiel's gorgeous hand, before Anna sullies it. Oh but I do love the way he jerks it away in disgust. :))
omfg and the castiel/anna shippers go wild. BUT WHY?! She is all besmirching Castiel's hand by trying to cop a feel... all through the episode she is blatantly sexually harrassing him. JUST STOP TRYING TO SEDUCE HIM, YOU ANGELSKANK WHORE!!!! She seriously needs to get over it - he doesn't want her anymore. Deal wiv it, Anna.
The way in which she just turns up and suddenly the pipe starts dripping had me utterly convinced that she was the one killing Angels though... IT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE GREATEST VALIDATION. But no :(
That being said, you could sortof see it coming with Uriel... all the talk of "mud-monkeys" and his blatant distaste for humanity. The reason Lucifer fell from Heaven was due to refusing to love humanity, so Uriel dissing humans at every available opportunity was definitely leading to SOMETHING - but what exactly it did lead to was completely randomly amazing. UNTIL HE DECIDED TO TRY TO KILL CAS. But then spurned love is a terrible thing.
BUT YES. ANNA. THAT WHOREBITCHANGELSKANK. Wtf is up with her just stepping in on other people's territory?! I mean, seriously, is that actually her MO? "OH I KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO TODAY - INVADE PEOPLE'S PERSONAL SPACE AND FLIRT WITH MEN WHO ARE CLEARLY UNINTERESTED."


I don't even know how I feel about Sam anymore. At first I thought he was being protective of Dean and my heart swelled, but then I thought he was just being derisive about Dean's weakness and I got angry, and now I just... can't believe he's let himself fall this far. I mean. Really? And look at Ruby, is there ANYONE who still thinks she's just trying to help out? I can't believe she called him Sammy.
People always say i'm a Sam Hater... but not true! I LOVED Sam in Seasons 1 and 2. This Sam? This Sam reminds me of Dark Willow and how she became a complete Magic Junkie and went off the rails in, what was it, Season 5 of BTVS? Season 6? I forget. But yes, Ruby is a manipulative bitch feeding Sam's quite worrying Demon Blood Addiction, and Sam is a disrespectful toerag who thinks himself ten thousand times better stronger faster cooler than Dean.
And ultimately, SAM IS A BLOOD(Y) JUNKIE!!


What took so long, Cas? :( But nnnngh. Nnnnngh!
INORITE. I was all like... "DUDE CAS, ARE YOU SITTING BACK SIPPING MOJITOS?!?!!"

So Castiel knew Lucifer. What fics will come of this, I wonder?
I'm giving it a week... then I fully expect to see about ten MILLION Cas/Lucifer fics flooding my flist. God. People are willing to bandwagon ANY OLD SHIP! That being said, DEAN/ALISTAIR if it means I get more Heyerdahl because AGHFOWMW,.SOI2N1IO1!!!11KDPDPQLMMDKDOODODD THEY KILLED HEYERDAHL OFF WHY OH WHY OH WHY OH WHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. He was the greatest :(

[dangerous-47.livejournal.com]

Ses. 6 of Buffy. :D

And yeah, actually that comparison makes a lot of sense. *Nods*

Heh. Sorry for the butting in. XD

[taurenova.livejournal.com]

TRACY! TRACY! TRACY!

I WATCHED IT! I WATCHED IT!

I WILL READ YOUR EPIC!SQUEE WHEN I'M ON MY PROPER TRAIN. CONSIDER THIS A MOTHERFUCKING PLACEHOLDER!

(RAHM WOULD APPROVE OF ALL THE ASS MISHA KICKED)

[tracy.livejournal.com]

JEN! JEN! JEN!

\O/\O/\O/ I AM SO HAPPY YOU DIDN'T WAIT ON THIS ONE, GOD. I CANNOT EVEN IMAGINE WAITING AT ALL FOR THIS EPISODE, GREATEST FUCKING EPISODE EVER.

CANNOT WAIT TO SQUEE WITH YOU ABOUT IT, BB!

(AND I KNOW, BUT -- CASTIEL HAS NEVER WON A SINGLE FIGHT? D: )

[strokeof-genie.livejournal.com]

I swear to God, if we don't get a hug between Dean and Castiel (with Cas looking a bit confused but will because hey, Dean!) than I will be pissed. Who am I kidding, someone has to die before anyone hugs a Winchester. God, I shouldn't have even typed that.

But omg. I agree with everything you said, and reviewing the episode again with screencaps just broke me again. God, these two, how are they so perfectly tragic, and meant for each other? I want them to find hope in each other. :( I really won't be okay for a while if this series doesn't end well for them.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Confused is a must, yeah. XD

Dude, Dean damned the world, HE DESERVES A GODDAMNED (NO PUN INTENDED, OR MAYBE IT IS) HUG. The way this is looking, though, I mean.. the extent that Kripke is willing to give us Dean/Castiel shippers what we want and then some.. I really, really do think it will happen eventually!

God, these two, how are they so perfectly tragic, and meant for each other? I want them to find hope in each other. :(

This right here. I feel this in my gut. God, Ilu so much right now. D:

I really won't be okay for a while if this series doesn't end well for them.

Me either, but right now -- I AM SO TERRIFIED OF THE SEASON FINALE CLIFFHANGER. Absolutely terrified, where will it see Dean and Castiel? I just want them to be BFFs and trust each other and find strength and hope in each other, but despite this episode I think a lot of shit will have to come before that, and I'm just terrified of the wait.

[strangeandcharm.livejournal.com]

I just flailed over on my own LJ and I'm pretty much all flailed out now, but I just wanted to say that I loved how much you loved this episode - it resonated so much and was so slashy and whumpy and angsty and guh.

I have never, ever dreamed that a pairing that means so much to me would have this much canon support, and Kripke is giving it to us, and I don't even know what to do with myself.

DITTO. What did I ever do before this show?

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Ah man, I haven't even gotten a chance to check my flist yet, but I will as soon as I'm done replying to comments here! and I CANNOT WAIT TO READ EVERYONE ELSE'S REVIEWS!

I love you for being my friend and for being you and for being such a huge huge huge Dean/Castiel shipper, oh god. ♥♥♥

My life started with this show, and with this season in particular. There was nothing before that.

[gembat.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for the picspam. Capping Misha's face isn't an illness, it's the greatest gift anyone can give to society. <3

My god. I just. Where are they going with this? There were SO MANY slashy undertones that this is basically canon now. Gah. I'm off to watch it again. XD

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Capping Misha's face isn't an illness, it's the greatest gift anyone can give to society. <3

In that case I will never stop giving to society. Ever. ♥♥♥!

THEY ARE GOING DEAN/CASTIEL WITH THIS. If not anything physical, then at least.. the closest of comrades, I think. Although Dean will probably close himself off after this episode and it might take some time to get something like this again, who knows? But it happened, and they both know it, and for now, that's gotta be enough. Uh, sorry for rambling, but god, I LOVE THIS SHOW. fklsjdklfjkls

[tracy.livejournal.com]

*g* Thank you, and I FUCKING KNOW, RIGHT? Nnnngh, I've discovered how I'm going to survive at least this next year without BSG.

Me too. :( But more scared for how Dean will take it. :(

[ibroketuesday.livejournal.com]

So, this pairing is canon, right? Right? Right? CASTIEL IS SO IN LOVE WITH DEAN IT HURTS ME. AND DEAN OPENING UP TO HIM (DIRTY!) IN THE END, AND JUST, DASGJDHSAGDHGSADHASDGAHJ OH MY GOD I AM SO HAPPY I NEVER DREAMED OF ANYTHING THIS GOOD. See, it's pretty much been canon from interviews that Castiel cares about Dean and it's going to start messing him up, but seeing it onscreen is so different, so much more intense. And even with all of the obvious Castiel affection, I've never been sure where Dean's feelings toward him lie, outside the realm of fanfic. But now, like, Castiel is the angel Dean trusts, and confides in, and speaks and jokes with like he's comfortable with him (the minute Uriel left to go get some donuts, all the tension in the room just deflated, and Dean turned to Castiel with a quip and they proceeded to have a conversation without any hostility at all!). Castiel is the angel Dean asks to be alone with, and wants answers from. JUST. THESE TWO. OH MY GOD.

Also, have you seen Misha's latest interview? You need to ask him how Jensen and Jared mock him.

ETA: I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS EPISODE SJKGDHASGD GOD. Okay, so, you know a little detail I love? In the hospital scene, Castiel's settled in the chair, and every so often he'll tip his head back and look at the scene or shift a little, and it's all the body language of someone who's comfortable, and content, and sitting in a chair next to someone they care about. LOVE.

[timbitsu.livejournal.com]

Also, have you seen Misha's latest interview? You need to ask him how Jensen and Jared mock him.

THIS! YES!

[big-heart-june.livejournal.com]

This is, hands down, my very favorite episode of the entire fucking series.



And fuck YES! Castiel does fucking care! And CAS!!! - how many times did Dean call Castiel Cas?!!! And why the fuck is Anna calling Castiel Cas??! Argghhh. AND WHY IS RUBY CALLING SAM SAMMY????! IT SHOULD ONLY ALWAYS BE DEAN.

AND OMFG YES AGAIN, WHY IS CAS THE ONLY ONE NOT CHANTING LATIN?????????!!!!! WHY BB??! *sobs*

So Castiel knew Lucifer. What fics will come of this, I wonder? XD

Oh BB, please please read savingfaith333's Wing Verse (http://savingfaith333.livejournal.com/38554.html#cutid1). Her third arc in the verse deals with Lucifer and Castiel and I just can't even begin to tell you how fucking beautifully she writes their backstory and relationship and all the stuff that happens towards the end of the third arc which is called 'Lucifer Rising' You do need to read the first two arcs though and she's just getting started on the fourth and final arc. It blows me away, SHE IS JUST SO SO SO FUCKING GOOD and just such a total sweetheart too ♥ If you ever find the time to read I promise you won't be sorry.

Remember when I said Dean would drop his macho act and break down in front of Castiel and let the angel take some of the weight off his shoulders? He's done it. And I.. the way he says he can't do it, it's too big -- god, that broke me. And I have never seen Misha look more helplessly sad anywhere else than he is here, playing this angel who isn't supposed to feel anything. The one who has no idea what to say to his human charge and friend but who for the first time ever actually sticks around because Dean needs him to just be there. My ship. my heart belongs to this ship.

Just yes to this BB, this whole scene broke and slayed me completely. Dean. Just....omg DEAN and Castiel....jesus christ, be still my heart ♥

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Castiel cares so much it hurts ME, and Dean called him Cas FIVE TIMES, I counted! \o/\o/ Of course, everyone else also called him Cas, arghh, but I'll pretend that didn't happen.

WELL, HE HAS ALL THE REST OF THIS SEASON AND ALL NEXT SEASON, SO I MEAN, MAYBE WE'LL GET IT. HAVE HOPE, BB.

Ahhh, bb, I want to read that SO BADLY, and I'm pretty much hating myself for not keeping up with it from the very beginning, but I'm so far behind now and she updates so frequently I can't. But I will. I mean, I read ALL of the Melting 'verse in one night, so when I have a couple of days to set aside, this will be next. Maybe it'll have to be after the end of the semester, though, and/or after she finishes the last arc, which at this rate doesn't seem like it will be very long. :))

As much as the last scene broke me.. I still haven't even begun to comprehend the enormity of the situation yet. I mean, this is.. the entire fucking world, literally, how can anyone comprehend that? Not even Castiel can, from the looks of it, and Dean certainly can't. But maybe they can together?

[n-isfor-neville.livejournal.com]

I wasn't one of the fangirls who fell in love with Castiel immediately, but he grew on me. This episode made me love Castiel.

This episode really was awesome. It also broke my heart at the end. I wondered if Castiel was scared or if when Dean said he couldn't do it, if he was thinking about Sam.

I immediately liked Ruby last season, but I cannot stand her this season. I don't know if it's the actress or the change in her character. I just wish she'd go away.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

This episode made me love Castiel.

Yeah. Yeah. Not even I truly fell in love with Castiel until the park bench scene, and maybe not even then, maybe not until Heaven and Hell, but this episode? I don't understand how anyone can NOT love Castiel after this episode.

I do actually think Castiel was thinking about Sam, maybe, but only in the context of Dean. He's so very clearly and entirely focused on Dean, moreso than even on his own issues of questioning his faith and existence and purpose, and that's kind of what kills me the most about him.

Actually I think Ruby's really interesting, even though I don't like her anymore.

[nyoka.livejournal.com]

Yes, to all of this!

[tracy.livejournal.com]

\o/\o/\o/ ♥!

(Your icon suddenly just reminded me of how far Castiel's come since Lazarus Rising, actually, and that made me go weak all over again.)