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[tracy_loo_who]

Someone tagged me for that "eight days of happiness" meme way longer than eight days ago. Sorry for utter fail, please accept my feeble attempt at redeeming myself. I'll even do ten things that have made me happy in the past ten days:

1. I officially completed my MS degree in biomedical/neuro engineering! \o/
2. SUPERNATURAL PREMIERE. duh.
3. All of Misha's recent interviews. Hell, Misha's face in general, but I think that's a given.
4. The extended Kara/Lee scene from Taking a Break, although I'm not sure this makes me happy so much as intensely nostalgic, both over the pairing and over BSG in general.
5. Getting comments on really old fics. (People are still reading those? o.O)
6. A behind the scenes Jensen pic, from andreas_ri. ♥
7. This comment from airings: from what I've seen (which is exactly one episode now), Dean/Cas is SO CANON. Idgaf what others say. IT'S TRUE WUV. ♥
8. taurenova's BFF!verse. I still need to gather all the links for that. Rahm and Misha being BFFs is totally my personal canon.
9. Back in college, I lived right next to Chipotle. I've been going through withdrawal all year, but they finally opened one here, too!
10. olympia_m's Roman AU which I already gushed about so I'll refrain from doing it again, but suffice to say it brings me immense and continued glee.

Some other fics, since it's been awhile since I did a recs post:

I'll Be Your Everlasting by ze_pink_lady: The hottest fic I've read in a really long fucking time. Seriously, seriously, and so romantic, too.

Something, Something That Replies by architeuthis: A Dean Smith masturbation fic, also hot.

A Wincest Story by trinityofone: Cute and hilarious and utterly heartwarming fic about Castiel falling and joining the family.

Anything Worth Dying For by waldorph: This is the most epic apocalypse fic I've read, hands down.

The Big Freeze by strangeandcharm: Hypothermic!Dean. 'nuff said.

A couple of Renegade Angels recs, although I've read shamefully few of those. Uh, I beta'd both of these, but they're damn good, I swear:

Second Verse, Same as the First: I LOVE THIS FIC. Groundhog Day with Dean and Cas.

In the Silence Afterward: Depressing, not gonna lie, but beautifully so and Dean is mute! I have a physical disability kink or something.


Also, because I can never stop talking about Dean/Castiel, I have more thoughts on the premiere:

1. Despite the fact that the overwhelming majority of you (162/194!) think God resurrected Castiel, I gotta disagree. I don't think it's Lucifer either, but God just seems... too easy. I think the show wants us to think it's God, and more importantly, I think Castiel wanted Zachariah to think that, but I think Castiel was bluffing because he couldn't take Zach on. He relaxed a little too much as soon as Zachariah left, and he looked a little too hesitant when Dean asked. If they're gonna bring God onto the show, I don't think they'd do it this early on, especially since that would take away so much of their struggle. So far, I'm really warming up to the archangels theory.

2. Upon rewatches of the Castiel scene (don't ask how many times), I was actually able to get past my all-consuming glee over Castiel's deadpan delivery of his "I carved it into your ribs" line and notice some other things. Like how Dean accepts it unquestioningly. Can you imagine if Castiel had pulled that kind of thing on him last season? The absolute fit Dean would have thrown at being violated like that? Now, though, Castiel does it without so much as asking or even warning them first, and then tells them about it afterward, and Dean moves on to the next topic. This kind of trust, coming from Dean? ffldsjkflsdjfdklsfjkslkfjdsklfjdklsfjdklsfjsdkl YES. That is all.

3. Dean tried so hard to pretend everything was okay with Sam for almost the entire episode, he even said so himself. He needed to have Sam, and that semblance of okayness, because he just didn't have the energy to deal with a fallout and the loneliness that comes with that. You know when he got that extra energy and strength? After Castiel came back. ♥

This isn't spoilery for the premiere, so I won't cut it: I've just kind of been assuming that everyone knows Dean broke the first seal, but is that actually true? Do Sam and Bobby know, even? For some reason I feel like surely this must have been addressed, but I can't remember when or how and now I'm not so sure it has been anymore..

Comments

[ibroketuesday.livejournal.com]

I don't think it's Lucifer either, but God just seems... too easy. I think the show wants us to think it's God, and more importantly, I think Castiel wanted Zachariah to think that, but I think Castiel was bluffing because he couldn't take Zach on. He relaxed a little too much as soon as Zachariah left, and he looked a little too hesitant when Dean asked.

This. I think - I hope! - they're setting it up to make it look like God, and then they'll pull the rug out from under us - and Castiel, hahaha awww - at some later point. Castiel was definitely bluffing to get Zach to GTFO, because he knew that if he fought him, he'd lose.

Re: point #2: <333!

[taurenova.livejournal.com]

8. taurenova's BFF!verse. I still need to gather all the links for that. Rahm and Misha being BFFs is totally my personal canon.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

(And I love writing it for you, bb)

[tracy.livejournal.com]

I WOULD LOVE TO SEE CASTIEL COME TO REALLY BELIEVE THIS AND BE CRUSHED. *cough*

♥

[darkmagess.livejournal.com]

I think Sam at least has to know about the first seal thing, because of the Smith & Wesson adventure. It wouldn't make any sense why that happened, unless you know that Dean was upset at having failed. And I think at some point Sam would have been all "wtf was that about?"

[ibroketuesday.livejournal.com]

It would be awesome if Lucifer did it, just for this exchange:

CASTIEL: God resurrected me. :D
Lucifer: About that...
Castiel: D:

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Okay, link time!

It all started in this thread (http://tracy-loo-who.livejournal.com/80666.html?thread=4507674#t4507674), I think.

March 25: Highlights From An Unlikely Friendship (http://taurenova.livejournal.com/273463.html) ♥

April 1: Attractive Government Conspiracy (With Special Guest Stars Jon and Stephen!) (http://taurenova.livejournal.com/278055.html)

April 9: PM from you:

"Rahm Emanuel," the voice was hoarse, like it didn't know how to be used. Rahm was pretty sure he'd just had a heart-attack.

"Holy fucking shit, where the fuck did you come from?!" Rahm clutched his chest and turned to face the voice. An unkempt man with in a ragged trenchcoat was standing in the middle of Rahm's office. There was something off about him, something that skittered around the edge of Rahm's mind.

"That is not important," the man said, tilting his head a little as he looked at Rahm. "You are considering turning the offer down."

"I think it's pretty fucking important," Rahm's anger lifted him out of his surprise. "Who are you and what the fuck are you doing in my office?"

The man sighed, his shoulders slumping slightly, and when he looked up at Rahm his eyes were lit by some internal fire that Rahm couldn't understand.

"I am Castiel," the man said. "I've been sent to ensure that you take the job offered to you."

"Castiel is a -" Rahm felt his eyes widen. No fucking way.

"Yes, it is," Castiel's voice was matter-of-fact as he investigated some of the papers on Rahm's desk.

"So, I guess this comes from pretty fucking high up," Rahm muttered.

"The highest," Castiel inclined his head slightly.

"Well, fuck," Rahm said with a shrug.

"You must take the job, it is important that you work with this man, Barack Obama," Castiel continued and for some reason the fact that he *wasn't* looking at Rahm made it mean more instead of less.

"I don't know if I can deal with being away from my family for that long," Rahm admitted.

"You will be rewarded, they will be rewarded," Castiel said, looking up at Rahm at last. "My Father rewards those who serve him."

"When he's not torturing them, that is," Rahm said, holding Castiel's eyes. The angel didn't flinch.

"Take the job," Castiel repeated. "You will discover that it's worth it."

Rahm blinked and Castiel was gone. He stared at his phone for a thoughtful five minutes before picking it up and dialling.

"Hey, Barack, I know it's pretty fucking late but -" Rahm paused, listened for a moment and smiled. "Yeah - I'll be your Chief of fucking Staff, Barry. Let's change the motherfucking world."

July 17: Rahm sees Misha's yoghurt pic! (http://tracy-loo-who.livejournal.com/91706.html?thread=6344506#t6344506)

July 31: Dean, Castiel, and Rahm (http://community.livejournal.com/glompalicious/5045.html?thread=1589429)

Aug 6: Misha getting the news he's going permanent on SPN (http://tracy-loo-who.livejournal.com/93662.html?thread=6566622)

Sept 11: Rahm watches the premiere (http://tracy-loo-who.livejournal.com/96787.html?thread=6979859)

IS THAT ALL OF THEM?

[tracy.livejournal.com]

OH MY GOD CASTIEL'S :D IS SO CUTE. AND HIS D: IS TOO! Then he could run to Dean for hugs forever.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

But it wasn't actually on screen, right? This is such a huge thing that if they did actually gloss over it, I cannot help but be kind of disappointed.

[darkmagess.livejournal.com]

AFAIK, it wasn't on screen at all, you are correct.

Maybe they figured there were too many man-tears already?

[ibroketuesday.livejournal.com]

Castiel is adorable when happy AND sad. (And he's usually sad, lolol.)

[tracy.livejournal.com]

We've seen him :(, but have we seen him D:?

[taurenova.livejournal.com]

I. I think so?

HOLY FUCKING SHIT, DUDE, WHEN DID THIS GET SO EPIC? I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WRITING SOME OF THESE.

Yay! BFF!Verse.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

It wasn't even a deleted scene! Man, I wonder if it's just us assuming it happened or if the writers assume it happened too. Maybe they don't?

[darkmagess.livejournal.com]

I think it's information given off stage.

That what I meant with bringing up the Smith & Wesson thing. By having that episode at all, I think that's them going "at some point Dean told Sam, but we're just moving on from there."

It's certainly possible that the conversation -didn't- happen. I can't think of anything in particular that would be different in the subsequent episodes if the other characters had no idea.

When's the next con? Someone should ask! :D

[tracy.livejournal.com]

I JUST READ THEM ALL OVER AGAIN AND FELL IN LOVE ALL OVER AGAIN. ILU. ♥

Also, Jon and Stephen have a cameo in this fic (http://waldorph.livejournal.com/112428.html)!

[oatmeal-queen.livejournal.com]

good point, actually.
it's interesting that TPTB are assuming that WE can assume the boys discussed it off camera and leave it at that. assuming this, in a season that was pointedly written to stress the fact that the boys don't really talk.
huh.

[taurenova.livejournal.com]

ILU 2 BB. ♥ I ACTUALLY RE-READ THE ONE WITH JON AND STEPHEN EVERY NOW AND THEN? BECAUSE IT'S AMONGST MY FIRST GOES AT WRITING THEM. I HAD WAY TOO MUCH FUN WITH IT.

Oh. OMG. Oh my God. Man. I have, like, seven fic tabs open now and everything is long. My holiday is so ~spoilt for choice~ I can't even.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

If they're gonna bring God onto the show, I don't think they'd do it this early on, especially since that would take away so much of their struggle. So far, I'm really warming up to the archangels theory.

This, totally. I've already explained my ongoing theories, but this is definitely what I think they're heading towards. God isn't a primary feature in the show, at least not directly. There is faith and belief and personal journeys these characters undergo and, quite frankly, it would be a copout out this early on to say "GOD DID IT YAY", especially since even the angels are questioning the existence of God. There is another player here, either the archangels or other higher ups, whichever someone that obviously does not agree with what Zachariah is doing and wants to set things right with the universe in some way.

But yes, I want this to be about their personal struggles and decisions and choices. I agree. It is too early to tell, of course, though I'd much prefer God to be more ambiguous or have the show leave the presence of a superior being ambiguous so the characters, and the audience, can interpret it as they will. Yeah.

OMG YOU ARE SO RIGHT ABOUT DEAN! He definitely did take what Castiel said in stride like, "huh, okay then." Trust. I love that there's this trust bonding thing back again with Dean and Castiel, and hopefully we get more of Dean reacting to Castiel more this season like that. EEEEE! ♥

Dean tried so hard to pretend everything was okay with Sam for almost the entire episode, he even said so himself. He needed to have Sam, and that semblance of okayness, because he just didn't have the energy to deal with a fallout and the loneliness that comes with that. You know when he got that extra energy and strength? After Castiel came back. ♥

DUDE. THIS. ALL OF THIS. YES. It's sad that he was forcing himself to really make sure things were okay, but after Castiel returned he definitely had more to just say what he felt to Sam, which is so unlike the Dean from last season who pretended everything was okay when it obviously was not. Now? He tells his brother straightforward, and it's heartbreaking and sad, but I think after learning that Castiel was alive and not dead, that Bobby was going to live after what happened, that he finally found that strength to tell it like it is. Not angrily or upset, but just letting it all out how he feels. Oh, Dean.

I've just kind of been assuming that everyone knows Dean broke the first seal, but is that actually true? Do Sam and Bobby know, even? For some reason I feel like surely this must have been addressed, but I can't remember when or how and now I'm not so sure it has been anymore..

You know, I've thought about this too. I think Dean probably was a bit too emotionally scarred after learning that he initiated the breaking of the seals, unknowingly of course, and felt guilty that it was just between him and Castiel for a while. Though you'd think that he would at least mention what happened in Hell and how it all went down. I'm pretty sure Sam and Bobby would understand. But that's an interesting point to make. I hope they address this soon, because that is something that really broke Dean last season, giving him this incredible weight and now with this new revelation making that weight even heavier, it has to come up sooner or later.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Well, I think the S&W thing could have been solely for Dean's benefit, since they didn't even show Sam's reaction to getting his memories back.

I guess nothing in particular would be different, but it would be good for Sam to realize Dean shares his guilt in ending the world, at least.

Chicago con in November! None of the writers will be there, though.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

I guess the thing that gets me is they don't give any indication one way or the other, really. And it's kind of a big deal!

[tracy.livejournal.com]

IT WAS AMAZING, STEPHEN TRYING TO PUT THEM ALL ON NOTICE STILL MAKES ME GLEE.

*grins* Life is good, y/y?

[blaithacs.livejournal.com]

Congrats for officially completing your MS!!

And wow, thanks for all those recs, I shall devour them when I have the time ;D Still need to read your multi-chaptered WIP, I have bookmarked it so I won't miss it *grins*

Interesting SPN thoughts... hmmm. I am really intrigued and can't wait to see what Kripke has in store for us (I hope it involves some dean/cas subtext lol).

<3

[darkmagess.livejournal.com]

The writers might not be there, but Jensen and Jared might know. They might have asked or just made assumptions and have been acting based on those assumptions.

[oatmeal-queen.livejournal.com]

it's not the first time they've done that either. they kinda did it with the whole 'our mother was a hunter and so was her family' backstory, where Dean bascially tells the story offscreen, and Sam gets about a sentence for his reaction.
and thaz it.
i was like ._. whut? cause considering how little they knew of their histories, and knowing Sam in general, he'd have been all OVER that.

*fluffs*

[taurenova.livejournal.com]

OH, "STEPHEN", ALWAYS PUTTING EVERYONE ON NOTICE. WHILE INWARDLY STEPHEN JUST LAUGHS AND LAUGHS. DUDE LOVES HIS POWER.

YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! Life looks pretty fucking excellent from this end of an 8 day holiday that includes Beatles Rock Band. :D