Because this is what I do at 2 in the morning: I think about Dean.

BSG post(s) to come later (god I feel like I'm spamming you guys so much, I never used to post this much, sorry!) but for now, I have this thing that I really really really want to get opinions on and discuss. PLEASE JUST HUMOUR ME, KAY?

We've all seen and had our hearts broken by Dean's borderline-suicidal need to save people at his own expense because he thinks he deserves whatever shit life can shovel at him. In Heaven and Hell he was ready to go back down there to protect Anna (some random angel girl he'd just met) and sure, he was calling Uriel's bluff, but I don't think he'd have done anything differently if the threat had been a serious one. And he'd probably do the same for any random victim-of-the-week.

Which got me thinking -- shouldn't he be more afraid? And then that got me thinking -- maybe he isn't terribly afraid, either because he knows he can escape torture and anyway part of him feels like he belongs down there with the other monstrosities or because he has faith that Castiel will come get him again. I admit the latter doesn't seem likely (yet) despite how much I would love for that to be the case, so I'll focus on the former. What would Dean do (WWDD, hahha, *shuts up now*) if he went back to Hell now and Castiel didn't come save him again? Hold out for awhile until he gives up hope on Castiel? Start right back up with the torture without resisting at all? Something else?

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I guess, in the end, what I'm really asking is: we've all talked about the potential, but how has Castiel and this brief period of salvation changed Dean so far?

Also, also, a couple of Dean/Castiel recs.

- Insightful and eloquent manifesto by commodoresexual

- An Offer of Comfort (Gen) by izazov -- Out of all the fics I've read that could conceivably actually happen on the show, this is the one I want to see most, especially after Thursday's ep.

Let me just conclude by saying I am incredibly, incredibly proud of us Castiel fans for being able to carry on a discussion without dissolving into wank. ♥

More letters from that book.

Thanks to everyone who made me feel less guilty about sharing! Some of these are much more personal, but.. so be it. In case anyone missed them, the letters from Ron, David, Eddie, and Mary are here.

( Jamie, Katee, James, Tricia, Grace, Michael Hogan, Aaron, Tahmoh, Michael Trucco, and Alessandro. I don't think these are spoilery. )