My entire life is an April Fools' joke.

[tracy_loo_who]

Still, I am SO IN LOVE WITH IT. Pathetically in love with it. I want to marry it and cuddle it and be with it forever. My life and I are like that lovey-dovey couple that's always holding hands and gazing all hearts-in-eyes at each other and making everybody want to puke, SORRY, BUT I LOVE IT.

INTERNSHIP IN PORTUGAL FOR AT LEAST A YEAR, WILL BE MOVING IN THE NEXT MONTH OR SO. Naturally I'd spend months looking for an internship in Europe only to get the offer on April Fools' day. Naturally. If this is a joke, it's the worst fucking joke in the history of ever.

Also, semi-hiatus until April 11. Don't think I'm gonna do a picspam tonight, I've gotta be up before 7 am and will be driving all day to where there is snow but only the possibility of internet.

Actually I have no idea what happened in tonight's episode, lallipoo came to visit so we went out and I was going to make her watch the episode with me but we didn't get back until 9:15 and then I saw the email about the internship and was too distracted being in love with my life. SPN was playing in the background but I was SO CONFUSED. AND DISTRACTED. Gonna watch the episode now, from what I did see I'll probably be depressed afterward. :(

UHM BUT LIFE OMG. ♥♥♥ FOREVER.

ETA: JESUS CHRIST THIS EPISODE HURTS.

LOOK AT THIS BROKEN ANGEL. WHAT THE FUCK.


WHAT THE FUCK. AND DEAN'S WORST MEMORIES BEING SAM'S BEST, UGHH.

CASTIEL SWORE. HE WAS SO FIERCE ON TV. AND CASPALA WAS AMAZING AND LOL "I'M DEAD" "CONDOLENCES" LOLOLOLOL CAS. BUT OMGG DEAN IMMEDIATELY DOING AS CASTIEL ASKED AND LOOKING FOR JOSHUA ~FOR CAS~ AND THEN CALLING HIM THE SECOND HE GOT BACK FROM THE DEAD, OTP OTP OTP.

SORRY SO DISJOINTED AND NONSENSICAL.

DEAN FOLLOWING CAS IN BOTH THROWING AWAY THE AMULET (HOLY SHIT MY SAM/DEAN GEN OTP HEART BROKE TOO UGHH SHOW) AND WALKING OUT THE DOOR WAS ALSO OTP. AND BROKEN. BUT OTP. HE LOOKED SO ACHY FOR BROKEN CAS AND LIKE HE JUST WANTED TO GIVE CAS THE BIGGEST FUCKING HUG EVER. ALSO HE NEEDED THE BIGGEST FUCKING HUG EVER HIMSELF TOO. WHY DIDN'T IT HAPPEN.

UM ASH AND PAMELA WERE AMAZING. I HAVE MORE TO SAY BUT I HAVE TO SLEEP. SO BROKEN, BOTH OF THEM. D:

Comments

[tracy.livejournal.com]

THANK YOU! :D :D :D

[karabou.livejournal.com]

I KNEW YOU WOULD LEAVE ME BEFORE OUR LOVE COULD EVER BE REALIZED.

Congrats! XD

[tracy.livejournal.com]

NO LISTEN I WILL BE BACK ON APRIL 11 AND THEN WE WILL FUCKING HANG OUT IF IT'S THE LAST THING I DO BEFORE I MOVE. SRSLY, THIS ISN'T FUNNY, THE VOICE SAYS WE'RE ALMOST OUT OF TIME.

[jiggawha.livejournal.com]

Holy crap that's AWESOME! Congrats bb!

European internships are so fancy <3

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D :D

HAHHA RIGHT? IT SOUNDS SO COOL.

[elvisglasses5.livejournal.com]

That's amazing and fantastic!!!! Congrats, bb!! What is the internship in? Do you have to learn Portuguese?

Um, I'm responding so quickly b/c I haven't been able to stop looking at LJ and thinking and reading and commenting about this GD ep that broke my heart. If you don't want to come down off Cloud 9, you might want to wait a couple days...

♥

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D :D I imagine I'll have to learn some Portuguese, but it's not actually required for the internship. Which is in artificial intelligence.

NO I AM GOING TO WATCH IT NOW. I SAW PARTS OF IT, DEAN BEING ALL T_T OVER SAM'S HAPPY MEMORIES BEING HIS WORST ONES, AND CAS GIVING UP ON GOD AND GIVING THE AMULET BACK IN THE END, SO I KNOW I'M GONNA BE HEARTBROKEN, BUT I NEED TO SEE IT NOW.

[baciami2.livejournal.com]

Fabulous news! Mucho congrats! It's fantastic when good things happen to good people. I have this incredible tawny port from Portugal. I drink a glass in honor of your internship. *cheers*

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Awww, that is incredibly sweet of you, thank you so much! ♥♥♥

[oatmeal-queen.livejournal.com]

holy shit girl, RL FTW! that's amazing! what do you get to do for your internship? i know your focus, but what will you be working with in that particular area of the world? should i just email you? X)

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Intelligent systems! To manage people and stuff. Hahha sort of like cylon managers. XD

[k3lit0.livejournal.com]

CG on the internship! Be sure to post cool Portugal photos when you're there! :o I have no idea what it looks like, I can only picture Brasil.

You'll love tonight's episode. It made me happysad. D: Picspam can wait until you're good n rdy! It helps the waiting anyway. TWOP.com recap comes out around tuesday usually, and promos spread out thru the week.. good to stagger such things so we don't go crazy nawmeans? You're doin your part to prevent fangirl spazzing.

I'm out of the loop.. what kind of internship is it anyway?

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D And yes, I will post cool photos of EVERYWHERE IN EUROPE. I've been googling Portugal and it looks amaaazing omg.

Hahha good to know I'm helping. XD

Artificial intelligence, basically. Which is so cool, I've always been into that sort of thing.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

THANK YOU! :D

No real brains, unfortunately. Only the computer kind.

[tahu.livejournal.com]

OHMYGOOOOOOOOD THIS IS SO COOL. *3*

WHAT WILL YOU BE DOING?!

[tracy.livejournal.com]

I AM SO EXCITED. \O/

DESIGNING INTELLIGENT SYSTEMS, OR SO I'M TOLD. TRAVELING. HAVING THE FUCKING TIME OF MY LIFE.

[ran-cl.livejournal.com]

CONGRATS \O/ ♥

Will you be dissecting brains in Portugal heeee? No ,what will you be doing there?

You will love tonite's show :)

[tracy.livejournal.com]

THANK YOU. <33333333 LOL I REPLIED TO YOUR OTHER COMMENT BUT YOU DELETED IT.

OFF TO WATCH EPISODE NOW YAY.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

YES IT IS IN LISBON. FFFF I AM SO EXCITED YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW. THANK YOU FOR THE CONGRATS. <33333

Holy shit the episode killed me. I must have watched that last scene at least 20 times. Dean looks SO HEARTBROKEN for poor Cas, fjkdlsfjdsklfj god I am too. T_T

[laceymcbain.livejournal.com]

Congratulations on the Internship! That's very, very exciting! It's nice when you and your life are getting along so well. *g*

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Thank you! And yes, god, so nice. :D :D :D

[olympia-m.livejournal.com]

CONGRATULATIONS!
that is the best news ever :)

reading the other comments makes me wonder if you'll be at the same place one of my former housemates did a post-doc a couple of years ago (she was doing this theoretical mathematics stuff for software design - it was all too complicated/foreign for me to remember). But she loved Portugal and I'm certain you'll love it!:):)

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D

I'll be in Lisbon! The company is called Siscog.

[kalikahuntress.livejournal.com]

Congrats, I am so happy for you.:)

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much! :D

[gloris.livejournal.com]

Congrats on getting the internship :D In Portugal, no less <3 <3 <3

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Hee, thank you! :D

[themadfish.livejournal.com]

YAY!!! Congratulations! That is so cool! :D :D

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Thank youuuuuu! :D

[qwertypoiuq.livejournal.com]

OMG CONGRATS ON THE INTERNSHIP, THAT'S AMAAAAAZING. WHAT'RE YOU GONNA BE DOING?

AAAAAAAAAAAHHH THIS SHOW AND THOSE BEAUTIFUL, IN LOVE, BROKEN, DADDY-ISSUES BOYS, ASDFGK YOU COULD ALMOST FEEL DEAN'S HEART BREAKING WITH EMPATHY FOR CAS WHEN HE REALIZED THAT HIS DADDY IS A DEADBEAT TOOOOOOO. ASGHJD.

[tracy.livejournal.com]

THANK YOU YAY. IT'S AN ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE COMPANY.

YESSS I WATCHED DEAN WATCHING CASTIEL LIKE 20 TIMES LAST NIGHT AND GOD SO HEARTBROKEN FOR HIS HEARBROKEN CAS, OMGGGG. OTP. :(

[star-watcher81.livejournal.com]

That Cas face makes me D: forever :-( Poor broken angel.


But in happier news, congrats on the internship! At least a year abroad--that's awesome! So exciting!

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Dean's heart breaking for him makes me feel slightly better, at least.

Thank you! I am excited! :D

[arboretum]

wow, congratulations! sounds so cool :) :) :)

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D :D

[fakeplasticsnow.livejournal.com]

I always check back here after Cas episodes because I look forward to your recaps so much! I was bummed again this week since Cas got so little screen time (again), and your Cas-goggle recaps always make me feel better about the Not Enough Cas situation. :) I hope you decide to make one anyway, even if it's late!

But YES, that last scene with Cas actually made me tear up a bit, which I'd never done while watching this show. Oh God, Mishaaaaaa. The episode as a whole was amazing. Oh Dean. Oh Sam. Oh Cas. Oh, BOYS.


ETA: Congratulations on your internship, by the by! It sounds great.

[gleeker13.livejournal.com]

*pounces from Puckurt comm*

HIIIIII!!!

Sorry, its late and I start spring break tomorrow. I'm hyper and should not be allowed access to the internet after 45 minutes at squeeing at the TV at a late hour

[tracy.livejournal.com]

THANK YOU. <3333333

Seriously, the only thing that made it bearable was Dean's heart visibly breaking for him. It's good to know someone cares about him. ♥

[gleeker13.livejournal.com]

YOU MUST DO A PICSPAM. I JUST WATCHED THE EPISODE AT FREAKING MIDNIGHT AND THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE THING I WAS MAKING THESE WEIRD SQUEAKING NOISES AND OMG OMG OMG BROKEN!CAS AND SWEARING!CAS AND RADIO!CAS JUST GENERALLY AWESOME!CAS.

AND AT FIRST I WAS TOO DISTRACTED WITH DEAN CALLING CAS WITHIN THE FIRST 30 SECONDS OF BEING BACK ON EARTH THAT I HAD TO REWIND AND SQUEAL OVER BROKEN!CAS.

My heart broke right along with Cas's hope.

AND THE AMULET. UGH. HURRY WITH A PICSPAMMMMMMMM.

ALSO. ADORABLE DOG IS ADORABLE. AS IS LITTLE GIRL WITH RAGING HORMONES.

[katty-blake.livejournal.com]

AND AT FIRST I WAS TOO DISTRACTED WITH DEAN CALLING CAS WITHIN THE FIRST 30 SECONDS OF BEING BACK ON EARTH
Actually, it was 12,5 seconds. SRSLY, I COUNTED. OMG OTP I LOVE THEE. <333

[novoamor.livejournal.com]

Omg Portugal, that's amazing! Congrats. I'm from Brazil so I can help you with... absolutely nothing cause I don't know anything about Portugal. But yay! :D

KDJHFG THIS EPISODE I CAN'T EVEN. CAS </3

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Thanks anyway, hahha!

WAH, CAS. D:

[cheerful-earl.livejournal.com]

Yay internship!!! :D That sounds AMAZING!

Not so amazing is the broken angel. *sob*

[tracy.livejournal.com]

I AM EXCITED.

But sad for Cas. :(

[megyal]

Oh wow, congratulations on the internship!

[tracy.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D :D