Fic commentary for The Forty-First Year

Done for deancastiel's Author Commentary Challenge. This fic won in the poll I put up last week, but "The One In Which Castiel Doesn't Fall" was only three votes behind so I dunno, maybe if I have time I'll do that one at some point as well.

This was.. the fic I'd never really intended to write, to be honest. I can't even remember when I first got the idea for the premise, a backstory in which Dean captured and tortured Castiel in Hell when he first came for him but then ended up falling in love with Castiel and wanting to let him go. I didn't think I could pull it off and kept hoping maybe someone else would write it, but no one did and then I mentioned the idea to ibroketuesday maybe a month or so later, and she practically forced me to write it. I'm glad I did because I think it turned out at least mostly okay and it was surprisingly well-received despite the violence and gore, but I'm also glad I waited because "On the Head of a Pin" aired before I wrote it and added so many layers to my original idea.


Title: The Forty-First Year
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Dean was not nice in Hell. There's non-con and torture and all sorts of nasty things.
Word Count: ~4,500
Summary: For every thing Castiel tells Dean, there is a world of things he doesn't tell him.

( In which I ramble. extensively. )